“When you start to doubt yourself the real world will eat you alive.”
– Henry Rollins
“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”
– Lao Tzu
Over the past two years I’ve slowly descended into a massive cesspool of douchebaggery. Although I’ve done a lot of cool things that I’m proud of, I’ve also transformed into a shallow narcissist. I’m arrogant, not confident.
While being vain and egotistical is great for competitive sports and bedding club skanks, it will ruin your personal life in no time. At the moment I have virtually no friends, having repeatedly abandoned them in pursuit of women and partying. The number of times I’ve hung out with my real friends this summer could be counted on one hand. It’s something that I truly regret.
I’m also having a really hard time connecting with other people. “Normal” conversation bores me and I often catch myself looking down on those who don’t live exactly like me. I want to fix this.
This month’s challenge might not sound very exciting, but it’s essential to my growth as a person. I’ve grown sick of my “f*ck you got mine” mentality, and need to make a change. With that said, I’ll also need to be very cautious as to not degrade into a spineless pushover.
There’s a fine line between arrogance and confidence and I intend to find it.
“The secret of business is to know something that nobody else knows.”
– Aristotle Onassis
The biggest lesson that I learned from this month’s challenge is how boring making money online actually is. It’s slow, time consuming, and frustrating; just like real work. Contrary to what Tim Ferriss may insist, selling things online is just as labor intensive and exciting as selling things in real life. At the end of the day it’s just a job.
However, it does have some perks that normal employment doesn’t.
- You can work from anywhere.
Working from a coffee shop isn’t super exciting, but it still beats being at a real work place. While I’m still being anti-social and focusing on making money, there is a nice ambiance. That should count for something.
- Dealing with weirdos is minimal.
Aside from tricking on Craigslist, you don’t have to associate with too many strange people. Towards the end of the month my radar for time wasters and complainers improved to the point that I could ignore “clients” who’d never actually purchase anything.
- eBooks are a tough racket.
At last count there were 9,000,000 different eBooks about making money, losing weight, and picking up girls. That’s a lot of competition. If you assume that throwing up a web page that says “click here to buy my book on fitness/sex/wealth” is going to make you rich, you are a fool.
- Making money online is the second most tedious job you can have.
Selling services on Fiverr, writing eBooks, and affiliate marketing are all difficult and mundane jobs. Putting pants on shelves, filing TPS reports, and doing other menial tasks are worse. They’re worse because you’re stuck there. If I felt burnt out from web business I could take the night off, if I felt burnt out from my day job I still had to come in the next day. The freedom of quitting is what keeps me in the web game.
My online businesses are starting to make me money. As much as I gripe about them, I’ll keep at it. I’d rather work hard to have money and free time, than to slack off and only have money.
“Imagine what you’ll know tomorrow.”
– Kay, Men In Black
I recently stumbled on an old picture of myself at age 17, I looked like a whole different person back then. Aside from my dorky haircut, the physical attribute that surprised me the most was how naive I looked. Back then, my world consisted of playing video games, and it showed. There was something about my appearance that broadcast how clueless I was.
If the past and present versions of myself met I doubt they’d even recognize each other.
At 17 I knew nothing about fitness or eating healthy, I snacked on pizza and Dr. Pepper almost every day after school. I’d never considered starting a business. All my writings were stashed away in notebooks, least some stranger read my thoughts. I also knew that foreign countries were full of terrorists, and that nothing would ever be more important than whatever was going on within my tiny high school.
Looking back made me realize how much can change if you let it. Within three years all my preconceived notions had, more or less, been overturned as I learned more about my surroundings and abilities.
It’s beautiful to know that there are whole worlds out there we can’t even imagine yet. And that our “fundamental truths” may be proven wrong at some point in the future.
I can’t wait for what tomorrow brings.
“I’ve got all the money I’ll ever need, if I die by four o’clock.”
– Henny Youngman
For the past two weeks I’ve had a hankering for L-Theanine. Unfortunately, I’m budgeting and trying to ween myself off nonessential items. This meant that I’d have to earn extra money in order to make impulse purchases.
For the uninitiated, Fiverr is a website where people sell their services for a measly five dollars. While this sounds like a waste of time, I actually enjoyed doing it. All the jobs I did were incredibly easy and took between 20 and 30 minutes to complete. I hyperlinked text for a website, wrote a 250 word article on Nicki Minaj, composed a blog post about England’s porn filter, and did some other simple tasks. Nothing I did was elaborately complex, or required immense effort.
With that said, there are several downsides to selling services through Fiverr. The first, and biggest one, is obviously the low price tag. If you have a specialized skill set, there’s really no reason to waste your time making five bucks an hour. Secondly, Fiverr takes one dollar from ever task that you complete. As such, you only get four dollars per job. This means that anything too time consuming should be completely avoided since you’ll end up making almost nothing.
Despite Fiverr’s low pay out, I think the site is worth looking into. By the end of last week I’d made enough money to buy my L-Theanine, a book, and some juicing supplies. If you’re a broke college kid or have a “make work” job, it wouldn’t be a bad idea to open a Fiverr account and start making side money.